Reflections

I know the breakup isn't a reflection of me, but I can't help but feel those pangs of rejection that I've been all too familiar with my whole life.

But this isn't about me. He wanted something different in his life. He had already created an attachment to Trisha, a while before I got in the picture. She was his first relationship after his divorce.

But I did like him. I did like trying something out. Maybe it wasn't him, but I liked dating someone I was attracted to, felt chemistry with and respected, who respected me, too.

So why does it hurt so badly? I need to remember that this isn't about me. That I did want something casual, that I'm not ready for that right relationship and now I'm closer. Much closer.